Hurting heart

Heart is the most deceitful thing of all. We love through it yet because of it also one can hurt others.

She was praised by the people around her because of her strong identity as a woman and a queen to the two princesses. She loves animals, doing household chores, cooking, eating and helping people around. In short she wants simple living.  Her two young lady loved her. They strive hard to be successful in life and make the queen proud.

One day, the queen who was known of her fierce look and brave heart of dealing issues in life became different and wild. Yes, wild as lioness who is crouching at your back willing to stretch out with her claws and leave a deep wound and mark on you.

Everyday was like a battle for the young ladies. A battle to prove to the Queen that amidst of her failed and painful love relationship in the past, there are people around her who is willing to listen of her stories to tell and love her wholeheartedly with no judgement of who she was, she is and will be. Yet, the warm loving heart of the queen was choked with bitterness. It becomes cold. It always judge. It always dwell in the wrong doings of the people who loved her and she once loved.

Since her loved abandoned her by choosing over the other woman, a deep wound, was left to her as a mark of her failed and painful love relationship.

The elder princess want to prove to the queen that she is not that kind of lady the queen is thinking. The elder princess is now getting hurt so deeply. It seems like her efforts of love is not appreciated by the queen. She felt useless. She felt guilty of the past, thinking that she is an evidence of sweet love that spark before yet turned to be sad, failed and painful love relationship. She knew  for sure that her sibling is also hurt within, yet tries to keep it on herself. She is worried as to what is going on her younger sister's mind.

 The younger princess is sanguine. She's emotional and a bit rebellious when hurt, that makes the elder princess worried.

On this cold night, the queens heart grows even colder. She is deeply hurt of her past that is why she is hurting other people, that includes the two young princess. Who has only a song book and a writing pad as their close friend.

Love does not keep any record of being wronged. It always forgives and hopes. Love is a wonderful feeling yet when deceived by the heart it can be hurt and hurt other people. Do not awaken love until it so desires.

Sources of the pictures:

malecodependence.com

www.local10.com

Take Over

Have you ever experienced loads of academic works, need to beat the deadliest deadline, cope up the 50-50 condition grade?

How did you handle these things? How did you respond to the world’s pressure and expectations?

As a Development Communication (Devcom) student, it’s never been new to me to deal on pressures and expectations. Beating the deadliest deadline, working on the eleventh hour to cope up the 50-50 condition grade.

Just last October 2, 2011, I was bothered by a requirement the 540 pages book making activity in our Agrim 52 lecture and lab, headed by Ms. Kathleen Arana and Mr. Ronnie Dane Alonzo. My first attempt to finish had failed and for the second attempt, in just three hours and half I had finish my book and passed it. Thereafter, I finish my DC 2- Fundamentals of Radio Broadcasting, radio drama activity, was done and was able to passed it that day.

For me it is an eleventh hour answered prayer. Yet for God there is no such early and late moments, for He is just on time. He took over the time where I was hopeless, tired of getting things worked, done and okay. He took over my emotional problems that started to ruin my life. He took over when my dreams have shattered into pieces. He has been my everything when I have nothing to give and no one to lean on. When the time comes that I can give…He’s been my inspiration to have the passion and love towards my fellowmen.

It’s so nice to have be with Him and work with Him. He’ll get the work just in time.

~Thank you for being my Dad who loves and provides my need.


Source of the Picture:
http://fearandwondermade.blogspot.com/2012/07/on-gods-watch.html

RS35 Reflection

My View of Church Before and After

            What is your understanding of the church? This question was not new to me anymore for I was asked before of this by one of our church leaders. Before I was enrolled in this RS 35 class about the church and sacraments, I understand church as a building where people gather together for fellowship and listening to God’s word. However as I grew up, our church pastor preached to us that church in the bible refers to the people of God called together for a fellowship and sharing of Divine goodness and love of Christ.

            That is why when our professor discussed about this, it was not new to me already. After hearing of Mr. Duhaylunsod’s discussion my understanding about the church was confirmed the purpose of its existence in the community. Not only that, I also learn that the church is a community of men and women who are united in Christ and guided by the holy spirit, press onwards the kingdom of the father and are bearers of a message of salvation to all men.

            Having this kind of perception now of the church, the significance it had influenced me as a Christian is about relationship. Relationship that is vertically and horizontally healthy. I say vertical relationship as a referral to my relationship-communion with the Lord as his people. Being a church called by the Lord for a purpose, I was encouraged to really walk with Him daily through prayer, meditation of His Word and sharing it to others. If I have a right and healthy relationship in the Lord, horizontal relationship will also be healthy which refers to my fellowmen. When I say of Horizontal relationship it implies socialization.

            As a Christian, I learned to be open for my faith and to be open and willing also to listen from other sect and even other religions. With this things also I am starting to see things in a differently. Amidst of different sect and religions in our class, we still have this calm spirit and a kind heart willing to learn from each other’s faith. Dwelling on our common grounds and nourishing, and teaching from each other’s faith helps me to grow more in the Lord and understand the people around me without prejudice.

            As I reflect more, I realized that the Lord is more concern of your being, your relationship with Him that plain doing. No one can please God without faith. And the faith that God had called us together as a church will result to good deeds. Therefore, I can say that salvation can’t be earned; it was a gift from God that will be evident in our fellowship of each other. We are precious in His sight and the simple though of “Jesus loves me,” makes me smile every day.

            I am praying in the Lord, and hoping that the RS35-AGA class will be a healthy venue to learn from each other’s faith without compromising the other.

 So Smile Sir, for Jesus loves you. :D

Sorry For History

Ever Since  I started to go to school, history has been a boring subject for me. Not only that, but I am not good in it for my memory is not functioning well in terms of this subject. I am not good in events, people, biographies and geographical data.


However this semester I took History 10.1, instead of Psychology which was close already during my enrollment. 


I felt so sorry for my History class because I've been a mediocre since the semester had started. I am a sleepyhead in this class. Nevertheless, Mr. Mark Anthony Ngo, made History interesting for me and it was not boring.  I like the way he teaches us. He was not dependent to one source. He's not a bookish type of teacher. He always throws and gives mind bugling questions to his students. Wherein I personally encourages to be a critical thinker and understanding the relevance of it in our context today.


Everything in History is important. The what, when, where and who are typical discussion in this subjects since high school. Yet Mr. Ngo lead us in also paying attention to the "How" and "Why" of the series of events in the history. That we may understand fully, and relate it to our present generation.




I should have learned more if I do advanced reading and sleep early every night, or should I say get enough rest, so that I will not feel sleepy in his class. Now, I am more encouraged to read more books, especially the BIBLE, which has more historical events that could be very relevant today.to be updated in National  and International News through watching television, listening to radio and reading newspaper (this one is expensive for me).


He once quoted, "History repeats itself." Every Second is a history. What you make, do, think, say and live out is will contribute to your history as human. It will be your legacy for the next generation. I am now conscious of the how and why of events.




Shout-Out
HIS story encourages me to study history.
History challenges and helps me to e critical in His story and share it to others through blogging and by being nurtured of His word.

Oh my it's CropSci!

"Crop Science...? Oh my... basok2x, tanum2x jud mo ana ai...!"

The very first time I hear the word Crop Science, I think about going to field for plowing, planting and familiarizing yourself in the scientific names of each crops and other agricultural raw materials.

However, it's beyond taht. Crop Science is a systematic  way of studying and applying it in or daily basis of living, especially in Crop Production.

LABORATORY

Every Monday Morning we have a Crop Sci Lab Class at Manresa Farm. We meet once a week only and have a lot of activities to do. I've learned to have hard work in one of our field work and understanding the farmers condition in toiling the land. I was taught by that experience also to be critical in analyzing the seeds using the software that neurologists used. then to be practical in applying the methods or strategies in farming,  we learned as a class. However I should have learned more of the analysis part using the software if I had a laptop to practice on.

Mr. Dennis Apuan, our professor had presented to me the value of the class to our course-Development Communication. Where we will be the said responsible in putting these agricultural analysis in publication or broadcasting, for further help or supplement for the farmers and any agricultural sectors. To be the hand and mouth of the Agriculturists and scientists.

LECTURE

Our ever blooming professor, Mrs. Mary Jean Apuan helps us in discussing the science side in Crop Production. I have learned in class about the basics of Crop Production, classification and it's functions. Yet, I should have learned more if she can make her voice louder and clearer. However, right now I am planning to review my notes and start doing pocket farming. 

The final output of these class was to observe the Salu-Tabu in our Capitol. That day, I appreciate all the things we discussed in a four walled classroom.

They may have lapses, as all of us do, they make me understand now why Development Communication is in the College of Agriculture.

Chocolate

I am an addict of Chocolate, I 

Yet another chocolate day, made me feel so odd.

Yesterday, I woke up early around 5:55 am.  For my sister Sharrah and Cousin Errell rushed towards school and the rain was pouring so hard. So hard that made the river so high. Later that river beside my auntie's house in Phase II Scions, Canito-an, was overflowed and flooded the whole community. It was my first time to witness how the water rises vastly. We need to pack up our things immediately, put the appliances in a high places as  possible (hoping that the water can't reach them)  and evacuated the area. Crossing the flooded streets with water in a knee level, freaked me. I can't believe it. The river was so wild with its color brown that somehow reminds me of the chocolate I left in the refrigerator. 

We stayed for awhile in the mother in law of my auntie Ellen. The water has not yet reach them. Yet in just 5 minutes we had received a news from a neighbor that the water was already a waist level high, then the water had started to rise and reach Lola Mars  house (Mother in law of my auntie Ellen). That pushed us to evacuate again the area. My mother Jessie and Auntie Ellen (yet I call her also a mama), requested me to go to Carmen and bring the clothes we packed up in Carmen (my Lola Esing's house where mama Jessie, my sis and I lived also).

I met also my classmates for the payments of the theater tickets, Magazine in our DC84 and Marketing Reports for our 2major production in Devcomm. Unfortunately, "hindi sila sumipot". So I need to go back in Canito-an to bring food for my Mom and Auntie. For they haven't receive any relief goods from the government.

After the flood had subsided, we cleaned the whole house. We use the Dipper, Pail, dust pan, brooms and foams to take take out of the water and rid off the mud. My auntie Ellen, her husband Uncle Jerry, my mother Jessie and me, had a general cleaning "limas". It was so tiring. so we had a break for a while, have some coffee and eat the bread that my lola had bought for them. I look for the chocolate and eat some of eat.

snapshots of the flood

This time, every time I see a chocolate I am reminded of how odd was the experience I had in the flood in Canito-an.

Source of the pix:

Google.com

http://www.google.com.ph/imgres?q=flood+in+cagayan+de+oro+particularly+in+Scions,+Canito-an&num=10&hl=tl&gbv=2&biw=990&bih=593&tbm=isch&tbnid=WeBcuSG2_unbBM:&imgrefu

http://www.google.com.ph/imgres?q=flood+in+cagayan+de+oro+particularly+in+Scions,+Canito-an&num=10&hl=tl&gbv=2&biw=990&bih=593&tbm=isch&tbnid=GVehmZe5vD2SSM:&imgrefurl=http://www.abtv2.com/tag/cagayan-de-oro-flood/orderby-relevance/page2.html&docid=r1-Y17mDWbfWvM&itg=1&w=120&h=90&ei=5lmVTuyxMO64iAf-47iHBg&zoom=1&iact=rc&dur=186&sqi=2&page=1&tbnh=72&tbnw=96&start=0&ndsp=15&ved=1t:429,r:1,s:0&tx=42&ty=43

Just a mere peice of paper

With just a mere of paper, everthing turtns out bad. I feel so dumbo, I fell so ineficient. My world as a DC student, lookslike a far away land...
Why cant i just do it for my self. I underestimate myself... and depend oin the technologies of this world... now.
 How i wish I can tuern back time...
 woooooooohhhhh... so stressful. I just want to be with my family... so sorry mr. blogspot if it was you where i had expressed all my emotions. I'm confused on what to do now. To take away all my wordds or to keep on cheating myself. I hate this me now. Lord, help me to overcome this. I'm soorry for all the things I've done that displease you. You are holy, you hate sin. May you still pour out your grace and mercy to make now. Forgive me Lord. Forgive me my clasmates.
T.T


-Empty me with this selfishness inside... Im so fool.. to be deceive by fame, and honor.
Teach me Lord to be true to myself. Wisdom , come and help me. Holy spirit... prompt to me what is the right thing to do.




Thanks for my cousin, who allows me to butt in now for awhile just to express my worries and stress as a student! Thanks EJ!